Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I will say, though, that today I was feeling a bit discouraged. I really think it is just that reality is sinking in and I am facing the facts that my beloved camera equipment is gone. I will admit, though, that I did look under the bed once more this morning, just for good measure, even though I KNOW, that it isn't there (from looking four times already), and I KNOW that the last place the bag was seen was in Phoenix, AZ.
(Oh, no, am I becoming obssessive-compulsive?)
I wonder if I will ever again be able to eat a veggie sandwich from Subway.
So, I am facing reality. BLEH.
BUT, there is a silver lining to every cloud.
I see that I have been self-absorbed and obsessed with this for four days, and that is enough. I'd turn on the radio and realize I was not even listening to it, so I'd turn it off, and so forth. OBSESSED. DEMENTED.
Okay, the silver linings:
First and foremost, the kindness, empathy, sympathy of family, friends, strangers. How utterly amazing.
How humbling and overwhelming. I am so grateful.
Secondly, this has given me pause to consider what is truly valuable to me and what is not.
Thirdly, not taking so many pix, gives me a chance to review what I have taken thus far.
And, this has given me a chance to evaluate what my talents, gifts and interests are and to fortify that this IS my passion.
My son says that by next week, thanks to so many of you, we will be able to replace the camera body and one of the lenses, at least. That makes me happy.
If you helped me in this, and would like more than just a spammish thank you, let me know, and I will make you a print of your favorite photo from my flickr photostream, and send it to you, or take your portrait, or a portrait of one of your loved ones, if you are nearby. Do let me know, I want to express my thanks through actions whenever I can.
thank you so much!