Friday, November 02, 2007

A Wave Called Me Today (and that is not a poetic statement, it is a literal statement!) see blog to find out what I am saying.


A Wave Called Me Today (and that is not a poetic statement, it is a literal statement!) see blog to find out what I am saying.
Originally uploaded by katzeye

Here is how it happened, and other than what I can say, I have no other explanation!

My cell phone got trippy on me and stopped taking my messages. Oh, it would take them, and indicate that I had them, many important ones, of course, but it wouldn't let me hear them. No way, not happening, nada!

So, I called T-mobile and a very nice tech-girl straightened it out for me and left me a message to test it. It worked again! I had a message, I could hear it! It was from the tech-girl, but she was kind enough to leave a funny, fun, pleasant message. (Don't you love it when service people go the extra mile and are fun, friendly and nice?)

Now we're coming to the wave part.

I got another message after the tech-girl message. I listened, and all I heard was the sound of one wave breaking.

That's it. A wave, it starts with the sound of the swelling, then there is the cresting, and then the crash of the wave, and the bubbly sound after it crashes and spreads out on the beach.

That's it. End of message.

I looked at my missed calls, and there were none, the last call that came in was from the tech-girl. I looked to see if Mark went and stood on the beach to send me a wave sound, but there were no calls from him since a while back, and those were all of his voice.

Hmmmm.

I have no idea how this happened. But it happened. If anyone has an explanation, feel free, but I like to think that a wave called me.

Monday, October 22, 2007

Firestorms; Southern California


Edge of the fire
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
When Santa Anas (the shift in wind patterns that bring hot, desert air from the east, to the west) are predicted, as they are several times per year here in SoCal, I groan. I dislike them for obvious reasons, which I will list:

1. they kick up allergies, and sometimes even send me to the emergency room for a breathing treatment.

2. they make my photographs curl.

3. they make my skin dry and itchy.

4. they give us hot temps, sometimes even into the 90s and 100s in the middle of the winter!

5. the wind is blowing hard and hot, knocking things over and down (trees, branches, power lines, myself)

6. they often last for an entire week, and one recently lasted for two weeks, making us miserable.

7. they bring fire storms.

Presently, we are not in danger of any of them, however, during my lifetime of living in SoCal, I have had experiences of needing to prepare to evacuate more than once, so I know what that is like.

We are, at a safe distance thus far, surrounded by them, and our county and the neighboring counties are declared to be in a state of emergency.

When we have firestorms, I try to be aware of their locations. In particular, I try to be aware of them in relation to the homestead, the house where I grew up. A few years ago, when my elderly mother was living there, a fire was burning in the canyon just below her, and I was up all night keeping my eye on that one, as the winds were sending that fire north and it had jumped a freeway in its path.

Fortunately, they got that one under control before it reached any homes. When we went up to see her shortly after the fire, it gave me a chill to see how much had been burned and how close the fire got to homes.

The homestead is empty now, but it is on the market, so I watch for fire locations now to hope they stay away until we can sell the home.

But who would want to buy a home in a wildfire area? You may be asking that. Or who would want to buy a home where mudslides occur, and earthquakes for that matter?

(okay, and how about flooding and tornadoes and tsunamis?)

Well, first of all, there is no place to live here on this planet where one can be safe from all forces of nature or man (the fire closest to us at the present was started by an arsonist-taking advantage of the help of the Santa Anas, and it is 3500 acres so far and only 5% contained).

But, those crazy Californians. They build homes right on the beach and right on the edges of mountain ridges, and they fill up the canyons and the foothills with their homes, and then watch their homes slide down the hills into the ocean, or crumble in earthquakes or burn in forest fires.

First of all, the people who can afford to build homes in danger zones also afford great insurance policies, right?

Secondly, and I speak for many native Californians, as I have lived here since birth in the late 1940s, so I have seen this land since before it became populated by housing tracts in valleys, and I have seen forest fires, floods, earthquakes, hurricanes, etc. We live here because we love it, and we are used to the personality quirks, as it were, of this area.

I have memories of being home from college in the summer, and with an out-of-state boyfriend present, hearing of a forest fire breaking out up the street from us, and calmly going outside to spot it myself, and getting the hoses going to soak the property, while the boyfriend watched with fascinated puzzlement. I explained later.

I have walked home from school, along foothill blvd. with a fire in sight in the canyon below me and a fire in sight in the hills above me and have stopped to call home before going up the hill, to be sure we hadn't been evacuated before I went to the trouble to trudge up the steep hill with my books.

I am used to not putting anything in a room or on a wall above or in proximity to a bed, lest an earthquake knock it loose and it falls on the person sleeping there. We recently moved, and on my mental to-do list is to get things to wedge bookshelves so that they don't tip over. I am used to thinking of any place where I live being a mobile home, as it were, one that can move at any time, without warning.

I would avoid a lot of that if I were to move to the middle of the flat part of the country, but then, there are those pesky tornadoes and all that energy sapping humidity!

On a cross country trip one time, I had a strange kind of disorienting homesickness after being in Nebraska, Kansas, Iowa for a while. No offense to those who live there, but it is sooooo FLAT there. Perhaps I wouldn't be as nearsighted as I am if I had grown up there! I had the strangest, almost like seasickness there. I began to see endless fields of waving grains as the sea, and the silos as ships. I began to so need to see a hill, let alone a mountain, that it felt like I would truly go insane if I didn't see a rise in the earth somewhere.

When I got back to Cali, and saw the Sierra Nevadas, I felt a surge of relief. I don't know what that was about, maybe it's just what I am used to.

Well, I am going to go take a little walk to see what kinds of waves the Santa Anas are kicking up today. And, this evening, with all those fires, there will be a spectacular sunset.

And then I will say a prayer for those who have been displaced and suffered losses from the recent fires, as they get their courage back to rebuild and start anew, once again, in their beloved canyons, and their beach fronts, and their ridges and foothills.

Monday, October 15, 2007

Moving is LIke Being in an Alternate Universe For Two Months


moving
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Maybe it was more painful than usual due to the fact that we just had to go through the house in which I grew up, in its entirety for pretty much the entire month of August. The dust, the history, the agonies, the allergies!

Then, to move out of a very large, two story home, to try to fit into a beach apartment again, what agony!

I feel like I have spent every waking moment of my life for the past 8 weeks in putting things into or taking them out of boxes, bins, baskets.

I have cuts, bruises, scrapes, and one badly dinged thumb to show for all of this constant motion.

I think we are starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but before I forget the agony of this all, I want to remember that moving is painful in so many ways:

1-even though we only moved 11 miles, there is the agony of leaving behind what is familiar (friends, routines, and walk-in closets!).

2-there is the actual physical parts of attempting to haul things up and down stairs, and into and out of vehicles, and, well, just always hauling until you dream of hauling and wake up in the morning as sore as you would be had you really had a tough work-out at the gym run by the merciless marine!

3-there is the emotional part of feeling displaced, wondering where things are, seeing favorite pieces of furniture with new moving dings and scrapes, and wondering if you will ever feel settled in the new place.

4-the wanting to do things like, well, live one's life, work, answer emails, take a walk, go to the library, post on flickr, see a movie, but you can't because all you can keep doing is finding things, putting things away, giving things away!

5- To be continued, I have just run out of time, again!!!

Monday, August 13, 2007

Are you left-handed or right-handed or in between?


Reading His Book in the Car
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Seeing as it's left-handers' day today, I thought I would pose that question.

I was told that I was ambidextrous when I was a kid. This doesn't surprise me for a number of reasons.

One is that my eldest son was that way, too, until mid-childhood.

Another is that when I've had physicals, they note and tell me that I have equal strength on both sides of my body, which is very unusual, and then they usually ask if I am ambidextrous.

I thought I had been left-handed. I surfed and skateboarded goofy foot.

I remember being in around 3rd grade when I decided that I no longer wanted to write left-handed. The reason was that the desks slanted the wrong way for lefties. Also, I was tired of smearing ink and getting dents in my hand from the metal spirals in the middle of the notebook. I went home and practiced my right-handed penmanship for many nights until it got to be comfortable.

I just forgot to change everything else.

I bowled, ironed, ate, used a mouse, knitted, caught, and carried left-handed. I even drew left-handed.

When I had a college ceramics class, and being about 98 lbs. at the time, and always slipping off the kick wheel, the professor took pity on me and put me on an electric wheel. But then all my pots kept falling.

He decided to watch me to see what I was doing wrong. What I was doing wrong was that I was throwing my pots left-handed! I had no idea that there was a right- or left-handed way to throw pots. I think my left hand was inside the pot, shaping it, and the right hand was outside the pot. He said it would never work because I was on a right-handed wheel.

A right-handed wheel? So potters' wheels spin in a particular direction depending on whether you are throwing your pots left-handed or right?

What a through-the-looking glass world I had fallen into!

I had to be moved from throwing pots to simply building them, even with all that practice (until my fingers were bloody!).

Since then, I have had only a few issues, like when trying to iron something, and keeping the cord out of the way, or eating next to a right-handed person.

It can be confusing, because I have become right handed at teeth brushing for instance, but when someone throws a ball to me, I can't be sure which hand will catch it. It's a toss up.

Once, in HS, I was wearing a mitt on my right hand, and caught a high fly ball with my bare left hand. That stung for a very long time. After that, I tried to get the mitt marked with an "L."

Some say that lefties are more creative. On creativity tests I score off the charts. But I can't help but wonder if I might be more productively creative if I could choose one side or the other.

I have discovered one thing, though. I have a terrible time sitting through a meeting or a class. I get restless, my mind wanders every two seconds, and I just want to get up and move. I learned a long time ago that if I knit (left-handed), I can endure holding still longer, and I can hear what is being said better.

Now I've discovered that if I doodle and write left-handed while sitting in a meeting or a class, I can concentrate on what is being said better. I am not sure why this is, but it works for me.

At least, maybe it will work until I become reconverted to proficiently writing left-handed.

After that, I may need to try doodling and writing right handed.

Friday, June 29, 2007

Which Has More Memories for You? Summertime or the School Year?


Summer is now open!
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
I was reading, recently, a collection of the summer memories of many people and was struck with the detail: "I remember riding my bike and it was so hot that my popsicle ran down my elbows." Or, "I remember the smell of the ocean all night long."

I was thinking that while I do have many very specific memories of school, the smell of the library paste, the sound of the bells, the crunch of the gravel underfoot on the playground, it seems that I have many more memories of summer.

Summer is only three months, and yet, it seems to be what dominates my memories.

I remember my sister, only about two at the time, suddenly floating out on a rip current at Belmont Shores, and the look on my mother's face (that indicated to me that this was serious and not that my sister had suddenly decided to swim out to the center of the bay) as she rose from her towel and dove into the water to swim out to my sister, the floatie.

I remember the myriad times that I stubbed my toe on the rough driveway while running barefooted.

I remember walking along the bay to the library in Belmont Shores to get arms' full of books, my cheeks stinging a bit in the evening air due to their being sunburned, and the smell of those wonderful, delicious books as we trudged back to pile them on our beds and read them all night.

I remember playing outside until 9 PM, and climbing trees and skinned knees, and traveling, all of us, crammed into a station wagon with no air conditioning, the windows all opened and the flapping echo-y sound of that and the heat as we crossed the desert, and the deviled eggs, and falling asleep in the car.

I remember eating the apricots off our trees, and sparklers, and lemonade, and sand in our swimsuits, and diving under waves, and drawing and writing all day long.

I remember swimming in pools until I couldn't breathe anymore due to the chlorine, and swimming in the ocean until we were wrinkled and shriveled and shivering and our lips were blue and our fingernails, too, and saying, "please, can't we stay out longer?"

I remember watermelon seed fights, and water balloons and not wearing shoes except when totally necessary, and utterly required.

And what do I remember about school?

Um, I think I would like to go back to thinking about summer for a while.

What about you?

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Black Widow Spider!


Black Widow
Originally uploaded by RussellChowning.
So, I went to get my bike out of the garage. I hadn't bicycled for at least a month, due to traveling, working, etc.

I did the customary thing, I wheeled it out into the light for inspection, and as I did, I noticed that it was tearing it away from some cobwebs, which is not surprising, often happens.

I parked the bike in front of the house and went in to get a rag and the tire pump. As I did, I was remembering how one time I had picked up a friend and her two little kids to take them to the beach. After she loaded her cobwebby paraphernalia into the back of my car and hopped in, she explained that they had cobwebs and stuff on them because she just grabbed the beach chairs, boogie boards, etc. from the garage.

All the way to the beach, I considered that there could be black widow spider families making their way along the floor of the car, headed for my bare ankles to deliver their fatal bites.

Fortunately, I didn't die that day. But I couldn't help but remember that creepy, crawly story as I headed back out to my bike to clean it up and add air to the tires. It added a kind of cautious mood to my task; a sense of impending doom.

I spent a fair amount of time, wiping at the cobwebs with the rag and my bare fingers, hardly paying any attention to the fact that the webs seemed rather sticky. I was almost finished, but there was one place, in the frame of the bike, that I hadn't gotten yet. It was a narrow, finger-wide space, and so I figured I'd just take the rag and poke my finger into the space.

Let me just add that ordinarily, I would have been simply taking care of the webs with bare hands. I was a tomboy when young, and climbed many trees as far as they would take me, jumped from many of them, surfed waves 2-3 times my size, rode toboggans down slopes, across streets and down the other sides at crazy speeds, and camped amongst rattling snakes and rode every roller coaster I could. I am not quite that way anymore, as time and age sobers us significantly, but I am not as squeamish as most females that I know.

Nevertheless, before I poked my finger into that one crevice that looked a bit cobwebby, I decided to look into it.

What I saw made me shudder. I saw what appeared to be a rather large shiny, black M&M sitting there. But instead of the M&M, it was a bright, bright, intense red hour glass shape, as crisply clear and straight-edged as if someone had drawn it using a straight-edge and painted it with red enamel.

I stepped back. I went inside and called to my husband, telling him that I "thought" there was a black widow on my bike.

He came bounding out, eager to see such a marvel. He peered into the space and began exclaiming with great enthusiasm. The words I recall that I can repeat were, "Wow!" "BIG one!" "Perfect hourglass!" "Perfect example!" "The epitome of a black widow spider!" (By the way, this photo is not of "my" black widow. "My" black widow did have a very, almost fake-looking, distinctive hour glass, with very crisp edges. It's just that she wasn't so "pretty" when we finished with her.)

So. He ran back into the house to get a screw driver and a can of insecticide (his answer for anything of the arach-persuasion). He sprayed my bike, and then poked the sinister widow out of her hiding place. And then told me to take a macro photo of her. So there I was down on the bricks, creeping myself out as I got close enough to her curled up body.

After I got the air in the tires, I put my bike in the back of my car, and all the way to the beach, I felt things crawling on me!

That was yesterday, and my bike is still in the car.

Generally, if I face my fears, and become informed, I am usually better able to handle things. And that monstrous black window making her home in my bike has creeped me out. So I went on the internet to learn that:

"Eating a black widow will normally kill a small predator (birds, et cetera) One can eat male widows without adverse effect, and so only avoid female spiders."

Alrighty then, I will only eat male widows!

"The venom of the female black widow spider is 15 times as toxic as the venom of the Prairie Rattlesnake."

And I was about to poke my finger into that little hole where she was waiting for me!

"The bite itself is often not painful and may go unnoticed. But the poison injected by the the Black Widow bite can cause abdominal pain similar to appendicitis as well as pain to muscles or the soles of the feet. Other symptoms include alternating salivation and dry-mouth, paralysis of the diaphragm, profuse sweating and swollen eyelids."

Uhhhhh....

"Persons with heart conditions or other health problems may require a hospital stay. (Heart and lung failure may result in death.) A physician can evaluate the severity of the bite, and give specific antivenin or calcium gluconate to relieve pain if necessary. Healthy people recover rapidly in two to five days."

Uhhh....

"First aid measures: Apply an ice pack over the bite location and keep the affected limb elevated to about heart level. Try to collect the spider specimen in a small jar or plastic bag for examination by a spider expert, even if you have crushed it. Treatment in a medical facility may be necessary. Call the Poison Center for additional information. Poison Centers across the country now have a new national emergency phone number - 1-800-222-1222"

(I am remembering how one of my brothers nearly died from a black widow spider bite. He was cleaning out a shed. His finger was bitten, and it turned black, and he was very, very sick. His finger always looked as if it had been attacked by a shark after that.)

"Be very careful when working around areas where black widow spiders may be established. Take proper precautions - wear gloves and pay attention to where you are working. The reaction to a Black Widow bite can be painful. The victim should go to the doctor immediately for treatment."

Note to self: get gloves that cover my entire body.

"To control the black widow, carefully remove all materials where they might hide. They can be cleaned out of an area simply by knocking down the webs, spiders, and round, tan egg sacs with a stick and crushing them underfoot. Removal or destruction of the egg sacks may help control the population. This spider is resistant to many insecticides."

Why is this not making me feel better?

Okay, after finding out more, and seeing photos of them, I have officially ended my tomboy period and any latent leftover, clingy cobwebby vestiges. If anything, I am even more creeped out! Oh, and get this, some sources say to look for them at NIGHT because they are nocturnal!

Not putting my bike back there, not going into that garage for any reason! Getting someone brave to go look for those, um, ugh (turning away) egg sacks.

Mark? I think there are black widows in the garage (soon to invade the bedroom and crawl around in the dark!)

Thursday, March 15, 2007

The Dumbing Down of American Citizens?


Edge of the fire
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
It is a sad realization that citizens of the USA are not getting the same education as their European counterparts, nor are they getting the same education as their parents and grandparents. To me, this is just another example of why home schooling can be a very good thing, and why we should not pay more taxes for more government control, because, clearly, the government is not that good at providing programs to the masses. But that is another story; another time.

I am here only to report something I heard stated on the news recently. The NEWS. This is that thing that so many people depend upon to be informed (as misguided as that may be).

A woman anchor was saying thusly (about how it is that when SoCal has Santa Anas, the winds that come across the desert and raise the temps by 20 degrees and cause allergies, dry skin, and fires?):

"I was interviewing a scientist about why it is that we have so many fires during the Santa Anas and he explained it to me like this: If you take a paper napkin and get it soaking wet, and then strike a match and try to light it on fire, probably nothing will happen. However, if you take a paper napkin, and put it in the oven at 350 degrees until it is dry and hot, and then strike a match, it will be a whole different story!"

So, ladies and gentlemen, this is what is constituted as news.

Are anchor people supposed to be educated or not?

Just wondering.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

The Travails of Travel


Running an Errand
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
The Travails of Travel

In John Steinbeck’s novel, The Winter of Our Discontent, there is a character who, when asked how he is, responds with, “Can’t complain, but I will.”

It is human nature to complain, to find the fly in the ointment; the trouble in paradise.

But sometimes, it seems like our complaints are pretty petty, don’t you think? And so, having said that, now I will tell of our adventures in the Dominican Republic.

We got up at the crack of dawn on the 14th and rushed to LAX. As we were taking our bags to x-ray, a guy with a cart came by and said he’d take them for us so we wouldn’t need to stand in line. As he wheeled them toward the x-ray line, I thought to myself facetiously, “if I ever see my bag again, I will kiss it!”

I had one checked rolling bag, not a huge one, just a bit over the limit for carry on. Mark had a bigger rolling bag, and he was dragging one more bigger rolling bag which was full of things requested by his parents. His parents have been living in Santo Domingo where, as temple president and wife, they are not weary in well doing. They are serving and befriending the people. Some of the things in the extra bag were full of items for the people, including things to go into humanitarian aide kits being made.

Our flight was on time, and we flew to Miami. I pretty much looked out the window the entire time because, as much as I have flown, even my stint working for an airline a long time ago, I do not ever become jaded about that view! In Miami, we rushed to our next gate and immediately boarded our flight for Hispaniola.

As I was getting on the plane, I realized that I hadn’t taken out my quart-size zip lock bag for inspection. Mark said, they don’t care when you are going to Santo Domingo. But if you don’t take it out on the way back into the states you could be in big trouble. (Somehow that wasn’t all that reassuring.)

As soon as we got on the plane, we were in a foreign country. It wasn’t just that all but a very few of us were speaking rapid Spanish, it was much more than that. There were exotic smells, exotic colors, exotic people, and the plane was pretty much in disrepair. My seat pocket was hanging by a thread, and the plastic thingie that is supposed to be on the floor to cover a seam was not there, but it was on the side of my seat, etc. I removed the plastic thing in order to seat myself and said a little prayer that the mechanical parts were in better shape than the aesthetic and practical parts.

We arrived in Santo Domingo without incident, and went through the tourist card/immigration process, customs, passport, etc. And then we wearily stood around the carousel waiting for our bags. Around and around they go, whose bags are these? No one knows!

The carousel stopped and all we had was Mark’s big bag, and I watched it as he rushed over to fill in the forms to track our lost bags.

Okay, so I used to only travel with carry on only. I loved the convenience of walking right out of the airport from the plane and getting on with life and not waiting around for or losing luggage. But until I can find some sterile contact lens solutions in 3 oz. containers, it’s kind of hard to do that. And so, of course, my contact lens solutions, and pretty much everything else was in that bag. I had only the clothes on my back, the lenses in my eyes, my camera and lenses, a book, and a water bottle.

So, I spent the first day or so, borrowing clothes, borrowing lens solution (not the one that my doctor wants me to use, of course, but what can I do?). I did discover, though, that if you wear slightly damp, just washed underwear when traveling in the tropics, it does keep you cool like built-in air conditioning.

We called the airport frequently to track our lost bags. They’d be on the next flight from Miami, we’d be told. I’d get my hopes up, and then they wouldn’t arrive and then we’d be told, next flight, next flight, there’s a flight tomorrow, etc.

Finally, they arrived one evening. We rushed off to the airport to get them. We went to the exit where people come out after getting their bags, and going through customs. We spoke to the guy standing there, or rather, Mark did, and I strained myself to try to understand their rapid Spanish. The translation: we were to go to the lost luggage office at the other end of the airport. So Mark, his dad, and I marched off to that office, only to find it closed about an hour earlier than its indicated closing time. (Later we heard, “but it sometimes closes earlier.”) We marched back, tried again. The guy guarding the exit had a guy on the other side bring out a trolley or two of lost luggage being kept there, none was ours and he said that was the extent of his abilities to help us. We could come back tomorrow.

We went upstairs to the airline’s ticketing desk. Couldn’t help us there either. Mark’s dad spoke to a supervisor and she had some sympathy and started the wheels rolling toward our obtaining our wheeled luggage. Supposedly. It still wasn’t showing up. By now, we’d been standing around in the airport for an hour. Maybe we should fly back to Miami and get it? Mark and his dad alternated in speaking to more and more people who seemed to know what they were doing and eventually, after many said they would get our luggage brought up to us, and never did, one big guy in a blazer (meaning he is powerful, Mark’s dad said), told us to go with him and he would get our luggage. The men went with him, and I stayed upstairs, just standing there, tired of wearing the same clothes and trail runners everyday. I was not totally trusting that if I went with them, someone wouldn’t finally show up there, as promised, with the two bags, and seeing no one there to claim them, take them to yet some other dusty corner where bags go to die.

After what seemed like roughly two weeks, Mark appeared in the distance, waving to me to come. Still, I wondered what next. He said we had the bags, and they were being loaded into the car. Still I didn’t believe it. When we got to the car, Mark’s dad was sensitive enough to know exactly what I would be wanting to do. He stood there with the trunk open so I could inspect my bag and make sure all was intact. Thanks. Finally, I could sigh a sigh of relief and offer a prayer of gratitude. That night, I showered and washed my hair and used all of my toiletries and put on clean clothes and flipflops!

Oh, and by the way, you may ask where were our bags all that time? They were just inside that exit where the guy was standing, you know, that first guy we talked to?

Then our days were filled with being immersed in Dominican Republic traffic, which is an entity in and of itself, perhaps another blog entry, and the colors, and the smells, and the sounds of it all! It’s a cluttered, colorful, and busy place, with people all over the streets and on motorbikes and motorcycles and crawling into taxis that were transporting 8 people already, and little buses and big buses, people everywhere carrying bundles of sugar cane, chickens, pigs, guinea hens, coconuts, eggs, beach toys, etc.

The people are beautiful, with big brown eyes and they look you right in the eye with a great deal of friendliness and humor. They speak rapid Spanish, and many also speak French, and some English, too. The children, shy, at first, are eventually also friendly, as are the many dogs that wander about, seemingly beholden to no one.

There are vendors with pushcarts or on burros selling massive amounts of plump fruits and vegetables, there are shoe shiners (who even tried to sell a show shine to Mark when he was wearing flipflops), sellers of cell phone time, windshield washes, and art.

The signs of poverty are abundant amongst the colors and sounds of Caribbean music, which seems omnipresent. There are homes without plumbing, electricity, doors, or windows, homes with corrugated metal for roofs, meat markets swarming with flies, people walking everywhere. It’s a beautiful country, with beautiful beaches that are almost too difficult to fully enjoy because one has in one’s head the hauntingly poor living in tiny spaces, and breaking their backs in the rice paddies.

We gave out a fair amount of pesos. Sometimes to some who were in need, sitting on a sidewalk, often to those who were shining shoes, or watching a parked car, filling in potholes (children), or washing windshields. We patronized vendors of crafts and fruits and foods. I wished that I had a big sack full of pesos and could buy from as many crafters and parking space watchers as I could. I’d have bought from the people painting and carving and creating art from hub caps and manhole covers. I would have bought squawking chickens and carts full of sugar cane. These people were finding all kinds of ways to earn a peso, and I would have liked to have more fully supported their industry.

The people in the hills of the jungles had their clean clothes hanging on lines, and chickens ran lose through the undergrowth. Children played and rode on the backs of motorbikes, chewing on sugar cane. Adults sold fruit, roots, meats (yikes, those pig heads!), and played dominoes. They’d wave and smile as we passed by, they’d cut up fruit for us to taste, they seemed, well, happy. Could they actually be, happy? Certainly, if one of us tried to live there, we might have some complaints, like, wouldn’t it be nice to have a bathroom? Or a front door? They might have some complaints, too, like, “Who let the chickens in?” Or “The roof is leaking!” Or, “We have run out of pesos and so we can’t all get on the motorbike and go down to the baseball game tonight!” Or, “There is nothing to eat tonight.”

There are people living in mansions who complain more than people who live in one-room cinder block homes with dried palm fronds for roofs.

And so, I felt rather silly for complaining about not having my bag.

And then we got the sickness. That horrid intestinal thing that happens when travelers go to third world countries. Complain, complain, complain!

We got better pretty quickly, thanks to modern medicine and how readily available it is to tourists. And then, off on our adventures again, in the cities, in the jungles, in the cathedrals, and in the home built for the Columbus family.

We met and conversed with several Dominicans and found most to be happy with their lives, despite the challenges they each faced.

Eventually, it was time to go, and we packed our bags and got up early last Wednesday morning. We left at 8:30 in the morning for an 11:00 AM flight to Miami. Arriving at the airport at 9, we did the customs things and the bag checking things and the getting water and food things, and went to our gate.

We sat and waited, as one must do when flying internationally. Hurry up and wait. Complain. Finally, we boarded. This plan was even worst than the last one, and while we had requested a window seat when we got the ticket, there was no window! It was a seat next to the outside of the plane but there was just a wall there and no window. We managed to trade with a woman seated behind us because she wanted to sleep and didn’t care if she had a window or not. So, settled into our seats (no seat pocket in front for me, it had been torn off) we prepared to take off.

After a while the pilot came on, in Spanish, and said that some valve was missing from the cargo hold and they were going to need an hour to replace it. We were to remain on the plane and they would show us a movie. Mark predicted it would be two hours.

After an hour, they invited us to leave the plane, if we wished, to walk around, eat, shop, or whatever and that we should just keep our boarding passes to get back on. About 95% of the passengers quickly vacated. Mark took a nap and I walked up and down the aisles, brushed my teeth, etc.

Soon there was a frantic message in rapid Spanish. Mark was dozing with headphones so he didn’t hear it. I saw the remaining people on the plane quickly gathering their things and vacating. I saw a woman, with a sleeping child, and all of the family’s luggage (her husband got off the plane when they announced that one could leave and come back after the repairs were made) struggling to handle it all alone.

I woke Mark in time for the English announcement: “We are ready to install the part but the plane must be empty before we can do that, everyone leave the plane!”

We gathered our things, and I hung around to see if the mom needed an extra hand or two. She made it, but she looked a little annoyed that they announced such a thing after her family had left.

Off the plane, we sat, with all the other passengers, near the gate, waiting to get back on. Some passengers, who had gone to other parts of the airport, were let on to get their stuff.

“We leave at 2 PM,” they said. Mark hung around the desk to keep up on updates. When he got the impression that it wouldn’t be 2 PM either, he booked us on another flight, 4 PM.

Next they cancelled the flight, and all of the passengers were crowding around the desk, trying to get the 4 PM flight.

I looked at their faces, and they looked stressed and worried. Many had little children in tow. Some were elderly. The 4 PM flight was filling up. Having gotten our ticket turned over, we went and sat where we could see them taking luggage off our disabled plane. We saw our bags! Hey, they were really on the plane! They put them in the back of a blue pick-up truck. We hoped that it was an official airport truck with no markings of any kind and not just some guy’s truck, and he was driving away with our bags.

After about half of the harried and weary travelers had booked on the 4 PM, they announced that it was time to board (it was around 2:45 by then). Oh, okay, we went to get in line, but we had the wrong tickets. They were boarding the original plane! The half of the passengers who hadn’t booked for the 4:00 PM flight could get back on the plane, and they did. Crazy!

So, Mark went to speak to the agent about how we had been in the airport since 9 AM, waiting, and getting on and off the plane for a flight that was delayed, cancelled and then reinstated. They gave him a voucher to get some food, but we had to hurry since the 4 PM would be boarding soon!

We rushed past the duty-free shops and got some food, and some bottles of Perrier, and hurried back to board the 4 PM. The 11 AM flight to Miami, meanwhile, was getting ready to take off, finally, and we would have been on it, had we been at the back of the line.

But, soon enough, we were back on another plane and ready, at last, to take off. We had, of course, missed our 3 PM connection out of Miami to LAX, even with the extra hour for the time change.

When we arrived in Miami, we had to get rid of most of the food that we got with our voucher, in order to clear customs, and get our bags, yay, they were there, and take them to send them on to LAX. It was kind of a casual area, with string to mark it off, and we slid our bags under the string and a lady asked, “Where are these going?” Hmmm, that seemed a bit too casual. We asked if the tags were clear enough, etc.

When we went to show our passports and get them stamped, who would be in the line ahead of us but the lady who willingly traded seats with us so she could sleep and we could have a window seat on the plan that never took off with us in it. The agent was not very kind to her because she didn’t know any English and she was a resident of the USA. He explained to us, after she left, that he was from another country, too, but that he was an American citizen now, and spoke English, and expected her to also. He refused to deal with her, and sent her to another agent. I wanted to say, “But she changed seats with us!” But I have learned to say very little when dealing with passport and customs agents. They have a lot of power.

So cleared, and secured, and checked, we went to our gate to, oh yeah, wait again. We got water, again, and food again, and waited. I saw the female, redheaded pilot enter with her luggage, and then the fight attendants, too. We waited some more.

Later, I saw the pilot come back out again, with her luggage. Huh? Did she change her mind? Shortly after that, it’s announced that the windshield wipers weren’t working and because it is a federal regulation that they work, they needed to be repaired. Mark went to the desk and asked if there were any other flights to LAX that night.

We had the 7 PM flight, which was a switch from the 3 PM originally booked. We rebooked on an 8 PM flight to LAX, and then moved swiftly, pretty much the entire length of the humongous airport to get to the other gate. (Mostly, we ran!) When we got there, they said that it was a wide open flight. Good, we requested a window seat and she said, sure.

Then, we sat to wait for the flight, Mark was on his laptop and making business calls since it was still the work day PST. I looked at the ticket to see what our boarding group would be. Number 1? Huh? And what was our row? I showed it to Mark, it was confusing, it was, it was, hey! It was the front emergency exit, and the window was about 2 inches square and way up on the wall, more like a peep hole than a window and one would need to be standing to see out of it.

Complaint!!! The plane was wide open, we asked for a window seat, and of all the window seats available, she gives us this! I tried to look old and weak so that they would take me away from the emergency doors and put me by a real window. It didn’t work. I scrutinized the passengers getting on. I said to Mark, “There’s an athletic looking couple, why don’t you see if they would like extra leg room?” He didn’t ask. We were stuck there all the way from the East Coast to the West Coast.

We were soo tired. We arrived at LAX just around midnight, PST. We were directed to carousel one for our bags. In a replay of our arrival in Santo Domingo, the bags went around and around and no one from our flight was claiming them and we never saw ours and there were no new bags coming. Then, after Mark had already started to wander toward other carousels, an announcement came, our bags were arriving at the carousel farthest away, of course, from the one that they originally assigned us to.

I struggled through the crowds, with Mark’s computer bag, and my backpack and joined him in time to find our bags arriving. Imagine that!

Then, after a wait and a call to get a shuttle to our parking lot, we finally got to our car, around 1 AM PST. We’d been awake and traveling for 24 hours. We were really, really tired and so glad to see my car. But what’s this?

Mark turned the ignition and the alarm went off and the car would not start. The parking lot guy tried and couldn’t and the alarm kept going off. I didn’t get it. I hadn’t set the alarm and hadn’t used it in years. I sat in the car with my ears plugged each time it went off. We had to call Auto club. I didn’t have my card and Mark’s was no good because his kids had already used it too much, so Mark had to explain to them that I was there but, well, anyway, they agreed to be there by 1:30 AM. We sat there, shivering in the cold. It has been really cold, and even snowing in SoCal, and that is probably part of why my car was dead. Auto club called with delays, lots of people with dead batteries in the wee hours of a Thursday morning. We might have fallen asleep if we weren’t so busy shivering in a parking lot near LAX at 1:30 in the morning.

At 2 AM, they arrived, disabled the alarm system and got the car started. YAY. We got home at 3 AM and fell into bed and didn’t wake up until 7 AM!!!

We wandered around with horrid jet lag all of Thursday, grateful to be home, and haunted by our memories of the people of the DR with so little and yet able to smile and be happy and uncomplaining.

We can’t complain, but that trip home was grueling, Soon it will fade and we will only remember the good parts.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

The Kerry Controversy


The Kerry Controversy
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Just wondering about a couple of things. First of all, I am not a big fan of George W. Bush. However, I AM a big fan of seeking unbiased truth wherever I can.

Kerry said, to students at PCC (one of the places where my dad taught psychology, by the way), that if they study hard, do their homework, and be smart, that they will do well in life, etc. And he said that if they didn’t, they might end up stuck in Iraq. Yadda yadda, we’ve all heard it over and over again.

Okay, so, at first it was taken as an insult to the soldiers in Iraq. Which made me think, “Huh?” I mean, after all, these are not soldiers being drafted because they have dropped out of school or are getting bad grades. But anyway….

Then, he tried to explain that he wasn’t trying to insult the soldiers, but Bush for getting us stuck in Iraq. Okay, that may be what he really meant, that’s feasible.

But, that makes one wonder. So, what he is saying is do well in school, go to Yale, and get better grades than he (Kerry) got (who also attended Yale, but with lower grade averages than Bush), and be smarter than the average Yale student, and…get stuck in Iraq?

Huh?

Okay and one other one that is not making complete sense to me.

Clinton rapes a woman (okay, allegedly, but if you saw her interview, how much room for doubt can there actually be?), and he has many immoral escapades with a young intern in the Oval Office. What happens when that all comes out? Nothing much. People say that his private life has nothing to do with it.

Contrast that with the Mark Foley “Scandal.” Is what he did more or less evil than what Clinton did? Does his private life have nothing to do with it? He was out of there the moment his behaviors were discovered. Gone, kaput! His own party had him removed, and he resigned.

Clinton’s party did not have him removed, and he did not resign.

Hmmmmm….

Thursday, October 05, 2006

How Do You Feel About Privacy w/re: Your Home?


Yellow House
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Okay, finally found a moment to repost this one:

What is your comfort level about visitors in your home?

A:
As far as you're concerned, your home is an open book, er home, and in fact, you don't even lock your doors. You have a sign out front that reads, "Mi Casa es Su Casa." You often come home to find that your home is full of visitors and it makes you happy. The more the merrier. And you often give up your bed, and belongings to your visitors, whoever they may be.

B:
Sure, friends and family can stay with you, anytime. You create a wonderful space for them, adding new sheets and candles and stock the 'fridge with yummy snack foods, and you clear your schedule so you take take them around to see the sites.

C:
Family need to stay for a few months? No problem! Come on in. You move out of the den, where you were doing all of your scrapbooking, sewing, movie editing, bill paying, napping, model airplane designing, and welcome them wholeheartedly and never ask how much longer before they find their own place.

D:
Okay. Family or friends can stay for a limited amount of time, with advanced warning, and a clear cut arrival and departure time. You will put clean sheets in the room, and move out your welding equipment. You'll clear a space in the refrigerator, and a drawer in the bathroom. And you'll have fun with them while they are with you.

E.
Short term visitors, okay. Long term crashing, no way.

Where do you draw the line on your privacy? Can visitors go in and out at will, including in and out of your bedroom/bathroom?

At what point do you feel there is intrusion or invasion?

Saturday, September 30, 2006

Art Teacher Fired Over Nude Sculpture


La Venus de Milo
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Here is the story that is in the news:

"FRISCO, Texas (AP) -- A Texas art teacher who was reprimanded after one of her fifth-grade students saw a nude sculpture during a trip to a museum has lost her job.

The school board in Frisco has voted not to renew Sydney McGee's contract after 28 years. She has been on administrative leave.

McGee says her troubles started after a field trip to the Dallas Museum of Art last April. McGee's lawyer says the principal at Fisher Elementary School later admonished her after a parent complained that a student had seen nude art.

McGee says the principal had urged her to take the students to the museum.

School officials deny they were reacting to the field trip but say there have been problems with McGee's work."

GIVE ME A BREAK!!!

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Grrrrrrr!!!


Sneer
Originally uploaded by elbow donkey.
This sneering post of my grandson is to express my frustration. Below you will find two identical posts, the only difference being that one is grammatically correct in having a question mark at the question and one is not since the punctuation is missing.

The site posted the blog entry twice, and when I tried to delete one, it would have neither of them listed as even existing, so I can't delete or edit what does not exist.

Bummer!

By the time this explanation is posted, one or both will likely disappear and you will wonder what the heck I am talking about.

the title of the errant twin posts is: How Do You Feel About the Privacy of Your Home?

So, if they both disappear, I will try to add one once more. If they are both there, you needn't feel that you must comment in duplicate.

If only the one missing the question mark in the title is there, know that I haven't been able to do anything about that.

Just a little more chaos in my chaotic world of late.

thanks for your patience!

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

The Myth (?) of the Starving Artist


Neighbor's Art
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
When I was an art student, we often reminded each other not to “prostitute” our art. What we meant by that, was that we would promise each other not to go out into the world to create kitsch or sell out, or work for a corporation while our artistic talents dwindled away until they were only a sad memory.

I was relating, recently, the story about how my dad and his friend, Eric Larson, were approached by Walt Disney, way back when he only had a storefront in Burbank, to be on his first team of animators. Eric accepted the offer and went on to create Bambi, Thumper, Flower, etc. I am sure my dad agonized over the offer, and in the end, he turned it down. He thought it was too risky. My dad was a pretty good artist, and we grew up seeing our likenesses turned into cartoons on many occasions. As a teen, and an artist, myself, I felt angry at my dad for turning down that offer, (especially when I was at Disneyland).

It wasn’t until I was older that I realized that he made the sacrifice for us. I am sure he would have preferred to have an animator for Disney. Instead, he finished grad school to be a psychologist, and worked hard to support his family.

No matter what business Disney was starting back then in Burbank, it would have been a risky endeavor. A business in the arts, even riskier.

I spoke to my next-door neighbor yesterday because I saw him installing a wrought metal gate. I knew that he worked in metals and was trying to make a living at it. Mark has said to me, “He’s an artist. Like you.”

I took a few photos of his gate and he was telling me about how he was probably going to have to close his business; just do it on the side. He was doing well, but the costs of materials was getting to be too much. And when he priced his work to reflect the costs of his better materials, the business went elsewhere.

When it comes to the arts, people tend to want what is cheap and mass produced. There is certainly more of a trend for people to expect free or very low cost digital photos these days because they know they can take a photo and it will only cost them the price of the paper to print it.

Too often it is forgotten that it is much more than the cost of the materials. I’ve often heard the story of the woman in France who asked for a watercolor of a street artist. He whipped up a watercolor for her with a flourish and when she asked how much, he told her his price. She was astounded at the price. She complained that the paper was cheap and that it only took him ten minutes to create the painting. “No, Madame,” he responded, “it took 35 years!”

Recently someone approached me with a similar question. She was admiring my photos and complaining that she wasn’t able to take photos “like that.” She asked what equipment I was using, and if that was what made the difference. I responded that it was probably about 40 years that made the difference

When I was an art student, computers were not even a thought in any of our minds. In commercial art and design classes, we had to learn to hand-letter advertisements, which would then be reduced. We had to work hard to learn the elements of design, and to work with a variety of medium. But even then, the idea of craftsmanship was in peril as the masses were already buying “sofa-sized” mass produced paintings in colors to match their décor.

Throughout history, artists have been under-appreciated, at least while alive, and confined to a loft somewhere, to spend food money on a particular, expensive shade of rare, red pigment.

I told the metal crafter that he should not give up. He agreed that he would continue to produce his art, even if only on the side.

As I walked back to my front door, camera in hand, I thought of how, in college, I had a second major in psychology (just in case?) and I thought of the stack of manuscripts waiting for me to edit and told him that, yes, I have a day job, too. But hey, at least I am not creating kitsch, and I am not doing school portraits for a company that only knows how to line them up and shoot them like pinned down specimens. I have not sold out, and I will not give up.

Support your local starving artist! Crave beauty!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

How Far Back Can You Remember?


Sleeping Emerson
Originally uploaded by katzeye.

I was talking to friends tonight about back-to-school. One friend’s daughter was starting third grade. I said, “I remember third grade.”

Boy do I remember third grade. I remember what my teacher looked like, what she wore, and the boy who told everyone he would kiss me before the year was over (a thought that terrorized me the entire year. And true to his promise, on the last day of school, I was waiting to get on the bus, and he appeared out of nowhere, planted a wet one on my cheek and disappeared into the cheering cacophony of his buddies! Ewwwww, yuck!).

But when I said that I could remember third grade, the others were astonished. Some said that they could only remember back as far as fourth grade. Some said that junior high was their limit. I was even more astonished than they were!

I told them, and it is the absolute truth, that I could remember being a baby. I can remember being held horizontally, all wrapped up, I remember my grandmother’s lace curtains making me sneeze. I remember getting my diapers changed. I remember gnawing on zwieback when I was teething and how my gums felt. I remember breastfeeding. I remember the feel of soggy cloth diapers, being in a crib, crying on my dad’s shoulder and the feel of his whiskers. I remember when my brother was born when I was two, I remember my sister’s birth and my next brother’s birth. I remember being a toddler. I remember what scared me and what comforted me. I remember everything about being five and the first day of kindergarten. I remember the scratchy, fussy dress my grandmother made me for kindergarten, and I remember how relieved I was to change into “dungarees” after I got home again.

I remember first grade. I remember everything about my classmates, my teachers, my room, my toys, my books, and what my siblings said and did and what got us into trouble, and how we got out of trouble. I remember my childhood shoes, my toys, and what I liked to eat and what I didn’t like to eat (I hated cheese around age 5-9, and have been making up for that lapse ever since). I remember the first time I saw television when I was around age one (which was also around the time that most people first saw television). It was a huge piece of furniture with a tiny little black and white screen.

I remember hiding under the bed in my room when I was very young. It was a trundle bed so it was a very nice place for hiding from brothers. Really, there is very little that I DON’T remember. I was as surprised at how little my friends could remember as they were at how much I could remember.

They suggested that I survey people to find out how much they can remember. So here it is. How far back can you remember?

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Forget Diet, Exercise, and Pills


Sheila and Jonas
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Forget Diets, Exercise and Pills!

This is the new era of cyberspace! We shop online, we communicate online, we send files online. There is virtually no need to ever go anywhere anymore! We can just stay home and utilize our windows to the universe for all of our needs, including the need to shed a few pounds and look MAH-volous!

A recent “news” item is all about how Katie Couric shed 20 pounds thanks to modern technology. Yep. Apparently an enthused photo editor thought she could use some slimming and so he used his mouse, and voila! 20 pounds gone, just like that! Who would ever know? I certainly will never see her in person, will you?

Let’s see, if I just never go out in public, and why would I need to, other than to get groceries and work out, I could just maintain a certain look, via software. I can get my groceries online, and if there is no need to work out, why should I?

Of course, her response to the controversy (and to me, the controversy is, and ought to be, how far should photo editors go to alter images? But that is an entirely other topic), was that she liked the original photo better because there was “more of me to love!” Hmm…imagine being narcissistic enough to…well, never mind, that is also a different topic. It’s just that my irony alarms seem to be going off here.

So, we no longer need to worry about such things as love handles or double chins, because they can be removed in seconds thanks to modern photo editing software.

Okay.

(I am wondering if there is any kind of elongating tool, I have always wanted to be around 5’7” to 5’8”, I’d only need 2-3 inches added.)

PS-I used this photo of my grandson and my sister, who is about an inch or two taller than me and in no need of digital lipo-suction because that way no one could accuse me of altering the photo, or of using someone in need of alteration.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

New Online Photography Workshop


Winged Guest
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
For those of you who have been waiting, and you know who you are, or for those of you who are interested, I finally started the online photography workshop. Find it here:

http://www.flickr.com/groups/kczphotoclass/

Friday, August 18, 2006

child denied her childhood


child denied her childhood
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Have we actually found the man who murdered this poor little girl? I have heard that he said such things as that he kidnapped her from school, and that he drugged her. Well, if this happened the day after Christmas, what was she doing in school? No one has school the day after Christmas. And the autopsy showed not a trace of any drug in her body. So, right there, two lies.

I also heard that his ex-wife stated, basically: what the heck is he talking about? he was with me in Alabama that day! (not her exact words). Ex-wives are not necessarily known for their loyalty to their ex-husbands, so why would she offer him an alibi? She wouldn’t. But she’d probably be eager to speak up immediately if he said something totally wrong. Lie number three?

It has also been stated that there is NO evidence, anywhere, ever, of his ever having been in Colorado, ever. Okay, hmmmm. Lie number four?

So, it appears that he might be a liar. But a murderer?

It has come out that he was obsessed with the Jon-Benet case, and that he was emailing Patsy, the mom, quite a bit, throughout the case. And now he is confessing to kidnapping her from school the day after Christmas, etc.

Maybe he is mostly a nutcase. A nutcase who likes to spend time in the pit of depravity. Maybe he gets a thrill from imagining himself as the murderer. Maybe all along, he has been attracted to the case and wanting some notoriety. Maybe he just wants to attach himself to something he finds to be thrillingly wicked.

And maybe the investigators are just happy to have someone so willing to confess that the facts can be bent a little.

I don’t know. And I suppose I have no right to speculate, not having the facts, all of the facts, and just the facts. It will be interesting to see if the truth comes out.

I do know this. This little girl was murdered, in spirit, a long time before she was physically murdered. She was denied the right to have a normal childhood, to be accepted as she was, and to be able to grow up climbing trees, not caring about what she looked like. She had a lifestyle foisted upon her that was not normal. For the sake of their own pride, her parents stole her life from her. She was sexualized by her parents long before someone molested her. She was used. She was made into a symbol and denied the right to be a real girl.

It takes a village to murder one little, innocent girl!

Thursday, August 10, 2006

War. What Is it Good For?


we are flying to kansas here
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
WAR. What is it good for?

I hate war. When I was a kid at the movies, war scenes always terrified me far more than any horror flick ever could! Even as an adult, war scenes make me cry, cause me to lose sleep, terrorize me. I cannot even stand to read about war. From a very early age, I sensed that war was the ultimate evil.

And yeah, I don’t like violence, in general, and I don’t like guns (even though I have a really good aim, my dad taught us to shoot at tin cans in the desert when we were young), and I don’t like mean people, and I don’t even like anger!

One might say that I am a pacifist through and through.

Would I like it if we were not at war right now? Absolutely!

Imagine if you would, that you live on a street in a make-believe neighborhood. You are living your life to the best of your ability. You have friendly neighbors on this street, and sometimes you socialize at each other’s homes. Down the street, though, there is this one family that hates you. And, in fact it hates you so much that it wants to kill you and your family. And, in fact, it believes that if its members were to rape your daughters, torture and maim your sons, and kill you, that they would be doing a noble thing. They don’t care about laws or the land, morality, what’s right and wrong, or anything like that. To them, the only thing that is right is to destroy you.

There are other neighbors who feel the same way. They fight amongst themselves, and often you see patrol cars pulling up at their homes to try to settle some dispute or to arrest someone who kills or harms one of the others. But, they are unified in their hatred for you, and have secret meetings and plots.

As time goes on, the threats against you and your family grow, and there are even attempts to destroy you. There have been assaults on your home and family, and upon your neighbors. Oh, and by the way, you cannot move.

So, what do you do? Do you go have a chat with these people? Do you see if you can work out your differences? You tried that a long time ago, and they made it clear that they do not want to hear anything you have to say, and they have no desire to compromise or reason. They intend to destroy you, and that is all there is to it.

Sometimes there is no avoiding war. Sometimes one must defend oneself and one’s own. And when war cannot be avoided, we must be vigilant about protecting and defending.

So, the neighborhood forms a kind of group to protect and defend those being attacked. The group may need to use weapons and it may need to use force, and it may even need to spy a little to stay on top of the actions and plans of those who wish to destroy you.

Amazingly enough, there will be some who will be more angry at that little band trying to protect us than they are at the ones who would destroy us.

Throughout history, the story has been told and retold.

War is evil. It will be with us until the end of time. I hate war. But I realize that without war there would be many countries that would not be enjoying the freedoms they do today. Without war, Nazism would likely still be a major force, as one example among many (and thank goodness for the brave men and women of WWII who took on that evil!). Sometimes war is necessary.

As much of a Pacifist and violence-hater that I am, you can bet that if a rapist had invaded my home and attempted to assault my daughter, I would have used whatever force necessary to protect her. I would have risked my life. I would have called upon my good aim, if necessary.

I support our troops who are defending us. I support our leaders who are working hard to protect us. I am grateful that they prevented the deaths of innocent citizens flying from London in the last 24 hours.

War. What is it good for? For freeing the oppressed, for protecting the innocent, for preserving our freedoms.

Friday, August 04, 2006

babytalk


babytalk
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Oh Brother!!!! Is this a shockingly, disgusting, and gross photograph. Not at all!!!

I am one of those people who is not immersed in popular culture that much. I do not subscribe to PEOPLE, I think the tabloids are sources of amusement during waits in supermarket lines, on those rare occasions when I actually go into a supermarket (I usually shop where there are no magazines and no toyfoods). I am not much of a TV watcher. I seem to live in an alternate dimension. Perhaps this makes me qualified to speak on this issue because I am not brain-washed as to current societal norms.

And so, when I see certain immoral and immodest types being role models to pre-teens, to me that IS shocking. When I see pseudo stars gaining popularity by accidentally producing and selling sex videos featuring themselves as accidental porn stars, that to me is disgusting.

When I hear people explaining why they had five children, each by different fathers (or mothers), to whom they were not married, at the time, and, in fact, when all were actually elsewhere committed, to me that is gross. (“It just happened!” They say as an explanation as to why they screwed up their lives and those of a trail of innocent victims. Or “I fell in love” to explain why they abandoned family and/or destroyed another family. When feelings and impulses rule us, the society is doomed!)

When I read of people who destroy or even murder for gain or power, I feel discouraged and I feel contempt for such acts.

So, read the article and come back and tell me what you think:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20060804/od_afp/afplifestyleussocialbreastfeeding

Shocking? Disgusting? Gross?

What is happening in our world where what is pure and beautiful can be seen by some as being ugly and unspeakable, and what is ugly and unspeakable is seen as being worth our attention and focus?

Some people have it turned all around backwards and inside out.

To me, this is a truly beautiful photograph! This is a loving moment that is pure and inspiring. Look at the baby’s expression! This is what mothering is all about and this is what produces a human being who will be kind, moral, and decent.

I applaud BABYTALK.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Is it Just Me, or Is My Frustration with Adobe Photoshop Justified?


Number Nine
Originally uploaded by katzeye.
Here's the thing. I've been wanting photoshop elements for some time, because I've heard it's a good, basic, photo editing software with some of the tools that I like to use.

Mark got it for me for Mother's Day, last May. Cool!

I didn't install it until sometime in late June, due to travel, etc.

I finally installed it, loved it, used it 2-3 times, tops. (Lots of travel in between.)

Home again, went to open it, and it went to a window that appears to be an attempt to upgrade it. Okay. I have several programs that like to upgrade themselves from time to time, I'll just wait for it to do that.

It never finishes. N E V E R. I can let it upgrade for the rest of my life and it will just be in the process of trying to upgrade, so eventually I have to force quit.

I contact the adobe people. They're really helpful until I say that I am using adobe photoshop elements 2.0. They can no longer register or support that because it is considered, by them, but not by a lot of photographers, to be obsolete. I can, if I wish, upgrade through them, for the huge editing program, that I never wanted in the first place, using my current softwared, for a mere 170.00 bucks.

I guess that is a startling bargain because, I am told, that if I were to buy it outright, it would cost something like 800.00.

But, I only wanted elements.

So, why would amazon.com sell software that is considered to be obsolete? Or, why would they not tell their customers that it is, so that they can know that before they purchase it?

So, I got to have the thrill of using it no more than three times? So my husband purchased a very short term trial software at the cost of regular software?

Is any of this making any sense whatsoever?

So now, I have to either upgrade to the whole enchilada, or write to amazon and see if they will take it back, and shop, all over again for suitable photo editing software.

Bleh! Any commentary, advice, suggestions are totally welcome!